life has a funny way

of changing on you. you think you can expect certain things, and then you can't. i think that is sometimes why i tend to be so cynical, and hesitant. i hate setting expectations because it is rare that they are correct and i tend to set them too high. so i gave up having them awhile back. i don't like being let down or disappointed. i don't handle very well. i guess that's just some immaturity on my part, but hey, everyone has flaws. life's about learning from our mistakes and growing. of couse, that isn't the only thing that life is about, but that's part of it. we are here to become more like Christ, and through our lives He shapes us through our immaturities to become more like Him. anyway, i know that i have a long way to go, but i feel like i am growing. i had my first history exam today. it went really well surprisingly. i got a B. i wasn't able to study as much as i like and i think as long as i keep at it, i can easily pull an A in that class. :) anyway, i am sorta tired because i was up last night until about one in the morning, so when i got home today, i had lunch then crashed for about an hour and a half. it was kind of a long nap though, the kind when you wake up and it kind of feels like a different day. anyway, i was glad to wake up because i had quite creepy dream. i have had so many of those lately. they give me a lot of grief. i don't usually wake up annoyed in the morning because lately life has been better than all those wacky dreams.

love